Just Do It

The farther into this ministry thing I get, the more I see I am not worthy of His call.

I remember when I first got saved. I lost so many of my friends. They thought I was trying to be better than them or judging them. Man, I was just trying to live my new life the right way. I didn’t know what it meant to be a Christian. I didn’t know how to pray. I didn’t even know how NOT to sin. Things just didn’t change on their own. The problem was there was no one there to teach me HOW to change. So I spent the next 7 or 8 years learning things the “hard” way. One of the things I learned was that the closer I get to Christ, the farther from Him I seemed to be.

Well, that’s never changed. I am still getting closer to Him. In fact, I’m closer now than I’ve ever been. I remember a day when I thought I had this thing figured out, I can do this, No Prob. Boy was I wrong. The place I am at right now is beyond my abilities. I am way past my knowledge and skill levels. But that’s a good thing, because in my weakness, His strength is made perfect in me. I mean, He has to do this with me, or it ain’t getting done. I have to pray now. I have to read my Bible. I have to listen for His voice and direction because I can’t do it on my own.

Like I said, I’m closer now than I’ve ever been. The funny, not haha but oh me funny, thing is I feel farther away than I ever have. It’s not that I am farther away, it’s that the closer I get the more He reveals in me that has to change. I have to get even closer. I HAVE TO GET EVEN CLOSER!

So how do these things change? I have to surrender my will to His will. There are things I want and things I want to do. My question has to be, “Do these things line up with what the Word tells me I can have or do?” If that answer is no, I have to have the self discipline to turn them down. I have to be more honest with myself than ever before. Funny as it sounds, I can convince myself all is well before anyone else believes that. But I think we all have that ability. No. I have to be really honest with myself. I have short-comings, I fail, I don’t have it ALL together. The good news? Is there any? Yes, His grace is sufficient for me.

I’m turning up the heat in my life. I’m calling a duck a duck. You know if it waddles, has feathers and a bill…it’s probably a duck. If it turns red, shakes and yells…it’s probably uncontrolled anger. If it sits on the couch during a time set aside to read or pray, it’s probably laziness. I want to challenge everyone who reads this. Whatever you want to change for the Lord, do it! Just do it.

Peace<><